WEEKENDS!

Everyone looks forward to the weekends, right? No matter what the reason... no work, no school, hubby's home,... whatever! I doesn't matter. THe weekends just always seem like the light at the end of a long dark tunnel. With my busy week packed full of class, homework, play rehearsals, line studying, occasional work, institute, and other various church activities and projects that come along with my R.S. calling... the weekend often seems it will never come but is a welcomed breath of fresh air. At least for the first hour or so. Especially sleeping in on Saturday mornings. But then I remember that everyone else on campus went home. I remember that I'm an hour away from mine and yet feel so much further. I remember that gas is expensive and the economy is suffering, and I'm hardly working and earning money anymore. I remember that goin' home just doesn't seem conceivable with the hour & twenty min drive I make two ways every Sunday for church. So then, what? I sit in my dorm and waste endless hours on the computer? I finish some of the projects I should have finished long ago! Many of them I get out to work on and just stare at with incompetence and realize why they've barely been started. I just need help with somethings. But no one is here to help... I'm practically alone. I oddly enough I can't wait for the weekend to end and people to come back. So that I can beg them to spend time with me when I'm not busy and they are... and no one has time... and the cycle continues. It's an ugly cycle & the only exception is Sundays when I sacrifice and journey across my homeland to the people who love me and take care of me & I open my gaping hole and let the spirit pour into it and fill it up & I'm happy & I feel loved & I know everything will be fine! THose are good days. Sundays, the Holy Sabbath is never part of the weekend. It's its own special part of the week & it is most beloved!