Love and Confusion

It's so easy to become infatuated with love. We desire that person who will complete our soul and make us whole. It's easy, however, to "fall in love" with the wrong person. Something in us reaches out for them. Who knows what it is that tells our soul that they will make it happier. After awhile, it's difficult to resist. Like a craving for ice cream, we desire their presence. When we have it, however, it is not enough. We want their attention also.
But how do we know? How can you say they're wrong for you without giving them a chance? There are commonalities, of course, that you should probably share, but is anything important enough to refuse fate a chance when the pieces for magic are present? Often, it becomes easy when we've repeatedly faced chance only to receive great pain. Should we then give up?
My heart cries out, yet my mind hushes it. So many reasons why it should not be heard. Why repeat the pain you've faced so many times. He is not like you... He is not compatible with your ideal husband. Some may say you're too picky. Am I? Seems wrong to give in when you know you're right. But does that justify resistance? People can change; they usually don't. But should we deny them the chance?
Then again, does it really even matter. He may never feel the same anyway. Many tell me unknowingly that he won't, but I believe them to be joking. Are they more serious than I think? Or are they joking about the reason, but still he won't care? Will I ever know?
Then, there's the fact that there are other boys out there. Some fit my future husband profile and some don't. Some like me and some don't. By verbally acknowledging my feelings, will I crush someone else? Will I ruin a chance with someone more worthy?
Seems wrong to be alone sometimes. Seems wrong to do nothing about it sometimes. But what do you do? What chances can you take? Are they worth it? I don't know what to say or do... If only he would do or say something. SOmething to help me determine his feelings. I don't feel as if he shares them, but maybe he's scared. Maybe he thinks similar things as me. Or if someone else would speak up. If someone else desireable came forward, perhaps, I'd find my answer. I hope, however, not to face any uncomfortable situations. It's hard to say no when you don't feel the same. It is just as hard, however, to say yes.
Why is life so complicated? WHy is love so complicated? All I want is to knkow there is someone nearby who cares. That when I'm tired or sad, there's someone who will always be willing to hug, hold, or cuddle me. Someone who will laugh when I laugh, cry when I cry, or make me laugh when I cry.
I feel led to him. Yet, I feel powerless to do anyhting. I must let or make him make the first move. Still, it's not easy to wait, and what if I'm wrong? As long as I stay impartial, keep my eyes open for other options, does it matter? I'd be waiting anyway, right? These truths do not make it any easier. I still "love" him just as much...